Well.... It has been much longer than anticipated!!! My girlfriend was in the hospital for a week. Definitely hard to deal with for me. AND my sickness got significantly worse last Tuesday. I am still recovering. My girlfriend is back home but... [drumroll] my apartment building caught on fire!!!!! No one got evacuated but still someone elses porch caught on fire and the whole fire department and police came. Huge thing. We were safe to sleep at our apartment overnight still. It is all good.. The building is just really old. I have a pretty bad headache and I am coughing up mucus so IDK how much I will update the site today, but I am hoping to at least get some things done...


01/11/2026

Holy crap I do NOT feel good. I slept like? 10:30ish. then Woke up at 9:00 feeling awesome but a little tired so I went back to sleep. When I woke up again at 9:30 it felt like I had been beaten half to death... Hanger pain and super dry cough and a horrible headache. And a muscle cramp in my cheek (this has happened before too). I got to work like 5 minutes late because I just could not get myself moving. I also woke up at 7:30 with horrible neck pain but that is mostly gone. The dry cough is what is killing me though.. I work 11-4 and 5:30-10 today. inbetween shifts im going to head home and have hot chocolate. I had some tea on my break just now but I HATEE hot tea so I didn't drink much, but it still helped. I'm also freezing despite wearing 2 sweaters. I felt just fine physically yesterday. I just have to survive my second shift then I have Saturday off. It's my only day off until the Saturday after though... I probably won't work on this site again until Monday.


01/02/2026

Happy New Years Everypony!!! I had a really good day yesterday. The guilt from my last post is pretty much gone besides the normal everyday extreme guilt..... I work 9-5 today and tomorrow, but I can't complain because I get pay and a half for it. My biggest resolutions are to save money and make friends. I love horses so I have hope for it being year of the horse.


01/01/2026

I had to bring my girlfriend to the ER last night, and I seriously feel as though guilt is eating me alive from the inside out even though she 100% needed to go. My parent's even said so, but the guilt feels like it'll never end. We didn't get out of there until 6:45am today, I only got 2 hours of sleep in my own bed, and then 2 hours of sleep at the ER. I am so tired. I have work from 11am-4:30pm and 5:30-10pm. I kinda hope they send me home at my second job lol. I would feel horrific calling out though!!! I had a quiche this morning though, they're right now my favorite food. I hope it gets better tomorrow.


12/29/2025

Girlfriend and I got back to our apartment last night and I cleaned a bit. I got some awesome stuff for Christmas! Most excited about the KeepCup, Beats, and metallic watercolors I got. I used to be a digital artist but since developing fine joint pain I just. Cannot.... I still can't draw for over an hour but it is what it is I guess. I have been playing a LOT of No, I'm Not A Human this past week. Legit every time I get the stoner, huntsman, or amogus guy something happens to them or they're visitors and it is driving me insane since I LOVE their characters. Sun guy also only shows up when I already have huntsman and because the sun guy will drink my entire beer supply, which I need for the huntsman, I have to decline him :-/


12/27/2025

Sooo... I am 20 now. How strange. IDK how I feel about it [cry emoji]. But I'm excited for Christmas! I lwk checked under the tree to count my gifts.. 10!!! also Excited to see who got me for Secret Santa. And to eat cookies. Christmas and Valentine's day are my favorite holidays. Staying at my parent's house for a week, which is great because it's been like "GET ME OUT OF HERE" for the past month LOL. I just finally checked my cum. GPA after we got our fall semester grades. I WAS SCARED!!!! But it is fine lord have mercy on me for next semester. Idk what else is going on... Oh I might drag my girlfriend to the mall on Friday before we leave to our apartment and I might.. just might.. go to this like cutieful cafe there and take pictures of Justin like how some people do. Examples:


12/23/2025

It is my 20th birthday in 3 days! I am excited but my chronic illness has been so much worse recently. We persevere though! Today and tomorrow I work 13 hours, but after that I don't have work for a whole week. My girlfriend yesterday got me the Western Appliqué Bowler Baggu as an early birthday gift which I am very happy about :-)
Here is an absurdly large image of it!

12/18/2025